Well as of late, I can't seem to fall asleep that easily anymore. So I typically wake up, grab some tea, a big blanket, sit on my porch, and write. This is just one of the things that came out recently.

"December 19

As I lay awake in my bed tonight, only another one of the many sleepless nights I have had, my mind wanders to the same stories, to the same faces, to the same voices, and to the same hearts. To the place that has forever captured me.

The place that my heart aches for.

The place that my soul weeps for.

The one place where my mind and body can find true peace.

Even if that peace comes from the tear stained faces of the children I held. Even if that peace comes from the tragedy worn eyes that I saw. Even if that peace comes from the broken hearts that I felt… It is only there that I find peace.

In Africa.

My home.

I have often wondered… throughout the months… What's going to happen next? Where am I to go? I feel so sure in my mind that I know where I want to be… but does my heart whisper another path?

When will I decide?

All I know is what I want while I am here. What I can give.

Love.

Life.

Hope.

While I am here that is the best I can do… it is all I can do… But perhaps it is just enough…

Perhaps it is just enough to quench my thirst for something bigger than myself… Because what I have learned in life is that while the heart longs to be loved…

The great thirst…

Is simply to love another."